update on insanity

Things have been a mess here. Starting in May Eric started having some issues and we were not sure why or how severe. He kept going to the doctor and they'd find stuff like high blood pressure, high cholesterol, hypothyroid, protein in his urine. They referred him to a kidney specialist and it seems the problems are gone except the protein. Last Thursday he saw the specialist and he said that he was concerned about kidney disease. Eric is 27. He ordered labs and a biopsy. Eric's kidney function is normal but he has the tip lesion variant of FSGS (Focal segmental glomerulosclerosis). The tip lesion variant is the mild form which can be treated with medicine and put into a remission. I didn't much feel like doing anything but worrying for the past several days and my own needs fell to the wayside. He has to take pills for the next 3-4 months but the doctor is "cautiously optimistic" that it can be controlled and stopped. We'll know more on 11/10.

I've personally slacked on the diet/exercise/book front. The diet isn't all that bad. In 2 weeks I've gained back 2 pounds which is not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I've still been watching my food, just not recording it. I haven't exercised in 2 weeks but starting tomorrow I'm back to the gym and doing something at home to fill the gaps. I can't live this way anymore. I'm 30 and don't want to worry my health will kill me.

My book situation is different. The story is coming back and I feel motivated again. I feel like this book is the key to my future and that if I don't write it I'm dooming myself to a crap existence. I can't do that. I need to get it out there.